Skinny

When I look at myself.
I see fat pig.
I thought of not eating.
I don't care if it makes me sick.

When I become skinny.
I will fit in my jeans.
I don't care what people say.
As long as I'm lean.

I want to be beautiful.
Without all this fat.
I drink a lot of water.
So my stomach become flat.

Skinner is better.
And I'm doing it my way.
Without any food.
Food that cause me to weigh.

I Dont Know How.

I been facing life alone.
Through my parents divorce.
The bullying I had at school.

I felt like god has forsaken me.
Feeling that he doesn't care.
Feeling that his not even there.